The Burning Bush Moment
‘I am only subject to what I hold in my mind’
This statement had me asking the following question:
‘What do I consistently hold in my mind?’
The most direct and concise answer I could come up with at this time was this:
‘If I do enough then I’ll be valued and appreciated.’ Hmmm…
Which is another way of saying that as long as I am ‘doing’ I won’t be rejected and abandoned. Hmmm…
At this realization I looked out the window to ponder the ‘aha’ in the moment. What I was presented with was the sun rising directly behind a tree out front of my home at which time I immediately had the image of the biblical ‘burning bush’ pop into my awareness. And then I laughed at how the universe presented to me a greater understanding of myself.
Now one must know that my relationship with the Universe is built upon a serious sense of humour. Life is one great big tragic comedy, continuously unveiling itself to me. And as they say, ‘laughter is medicine’. I was most certainly medicated within this moment.
Now I had to get serious with myself about the truth that I was rejecting and abandoning myself every time I jumped through the ‘doing’ & ‘proving’ hoops for someone else’s approval. At first glance this realization was painful and it took great awareness to sit in the pain. But after a few more moments I was struck by the fact that it was absolutely more painful to jump through the hoops with little to no success in the sought after outcome. Which is to be valued and appreciated so I wouldn’t be rejected and abandoned. Well, holy fuck!!
Awareness is the first big step towards change. As long as I seek approval from others I will almost always reject and abandon myself. So now I ask, how can I direct my energy to accept and support myself? And the only way anyone can accept and support themselves is by ‘be’-ing themselves. A very interesting dichotomy.
Be the change you want to see in life. I want to be valued and appreciated, therefore I must value and appreciate myself. I want to be accepted and supported, therefore I must accept and support myself.
May you find within yourself the change you want to see in the world. And to do this we must ‘know thyself’. Welcome to the community that is here to hold safe space for all to come to ‘know thyself’ in their fullness, in their unique and individual ways.
